Episode 35: Making Thoughts Lovely

Synopsis

Today's episode is a short journey - you could say a jaunt: a businessman's trip... About the inner creator within each of us, and how there's never anything missing, only things to be discovered. Take this time as an opportunity to find appreciation for yourself!

Show Notes

Welcome back journeyer, nice to have you here. I want to share with you a little story about something I experienced the other day in my car. I was driving, I don't drive a lot of places these days. But I was listening to the radio and none other than Radiohead came on.

And I had to check before I jumped on here to record this because I was unsure, it seemed new to me. There was a time in my life when I listened to and loved Radiohead so much. Probably could've predicted which song was coming up next on the desk for like 4 or 5 at their discs. I knew their music backwards and forwards inside and out. I love Radiohead.

And it's cool because now if songs play I can still recollect the lyrics, I still know the harmonies, just because I explored it so deeply. So when they came on the other day I was certain that it was new but I don't think they've done anything new for quite some time so I guess it was just something that I didn't know about.

The music transformed my mood. You may probably know what I'm talking about, but man, when something really good comes on especially if it takes you back to some other place you could be thinking about something else or stress and all of a sudden you're feeling that music and that's what was happening for me that day.

And a familiar ache. A familiar pain surfaced for me.

Because I thought to myself, because I do create, I do express things. I thought to myself, man I wish that my craft can make people feel the way that Radiohead makes me feel.

And because, very recently, I had just done some really interesting inner exploration work myself in service to my own needs and well being, I learned something about myself which allowed me to have and take up a different filter around this pain, this ache that I felt for not being more like radio at.

Which is of course absurd because they are like so incredible that there's no comparison that I was making there, but just a thought... Can my words have the capability to create something just as important? Or as impactful as Radiohead's music? Or as any musician’s music?

And I was saddened by the thought that it couldn't. But the lens I recently acquired was that there are all different kinds of pleasures that we can have. And one of the gifts that I have is to make thoughts and ideas lovely. To create beautiful ideas. See, on a daily basis my head is full of ideas and it's full of beauty. That's just who I am and it's kind of an annoying part of who I am because honestly sometimes my head's in a totally different place or I'm on a run but I want to take a picture and I don't indulge it but my head's always there.

I'm always seeing things through the lens of creating something beautiful out of it. And I have a really cool talent for intellectualizing emotions. Now these are two somewhat personal things that I'm sharing with you but I'm doing it because since I knew that, all of a sudden in the car that day I realized though I don't experience pleasure the way that I create it, other people do.

I tell you this today because I think that the experience of ache and pain for what we are not is so common. And it's intense. It can be very intense and this ache or pain can also manifest or show up related to time on our own time horizon.

I have a friend whose identity was about dancing but now she's injured and she knows she'll probably never return to dance the same way. I have another friend who loved a home in Maine so much… but it came to the point that they could not afford it any longer and they had to let it go and they’ll never have that home again.

I, myself, might never climb the way that I once did because it is such a jealous pastime. It is so time intensive to do that well and safely.

So, if you might be feeling any type of pain or loss or grief or ache about what you are not or what you are not any longer, especially as it stems from comparison like what I was doing with Radiohead... I just wanted to offer this and express some solidarity, and express compassion and some understanding and also the possibility that there is a way and a frame in which it will not hurt as much.

Let me know what comes up for you. I'd love for you to get in connection with me. I'd love to hear your story. You can do that through my website's content form at www.palladiummind.com/contact. And until our paths cross next, take care.